Back to English!

Hadn't realised I was writing in Hindi (previous post) till I looked up (haven't mastered touch typing yet) but when I did it looked so cool I thought I'd leave it as a post.

Anyway the net disappeared for an entire week! At such a wrong time too, so much has been going on since that I don't know where to start!

Let’s see my last post was me looking forward to being back at school. Wow seems so long ago. All the motivation and enlightenment i had felt then quickly disappeared when I got to school. Not because of the class but because of the group I'm with. They all wanted to go home and not bother with it and the effect rubbed of on me.

I know I shouldn't let people's bad vibes so to speak get to me but it really did and after some disagreements, last min changes and a tense atmosphere I'm now planning and delivering a pre-visit talk on my own.

I don't mind to much because I've fallen in love with the class. I really don't know how I'm supposed to decide which age range I want to specialise in, whenever I step in to a classroom be it a nursery, a year 1 class or year 5 I end up loving it so much so that I know that That’s the age I want to teach.....until I go in to another classroom.

Anyway back to the class there was only 4 girls in a class of 26!! Some of the kids were of that day. I'm guessing they were girls - not because girls are skivers but because there was hardly any! Thankfully my knowledge of Arsenal that I had learnt from the last placement enabled me to break the ice with them beautifully and we had loads to talk about.

The class was doing an art project on 'The Joy of Life'. They drew things which made them happy, some drew things just because they were easy to draw such as flowers. Never seen so many boys draw flowers! These were then cut and stuck on to cardboard which was then hung from a cardboard stage. We didn't see it through to finishing point but if some are on display I will take pics. It’s an idea I shall be using hopefully.

This post is getting long and very random. I wanted to talk about how my motivation fell from such a great height in detail, about the class in detail and about the work they were doing in detail but it all seems so long ago and I want to write about some other things.

I'll end this now before it gets too long!

थे नेट इस बैक वोव इम व्रितिंग इन्चिनेअसे

होव दो ई चंगे थिस? इट्स चंगिंग एवेर्य्थिंग ई राइट इन तो चिनेसे! थे कुल्नेस्स ऑफ़ इत अल ओह वेट थिस इस्न्त चिनेअसे इट्स हिंदी!

वहत थे हेल!!!!

School Tomorrow!

I've got the bee buzzing inside me feeling. The one which only being in a school can bring. I'll be meeting the class I've heard so much about for the first time, working with 5 other trainees for the first time and I'm going to be working with year 6 for the first time.

All the firsts are making me really excited and really nervous to. I'll be battling it out to stand out from the other 5 and try out all the exciting ideas I've spent ages planning. I've gone over the lesson plans and made sure there is a clear element of learning in there.

A book I've been reading opened my eyes and a talk about the Madeline issue and the countless number of children who are in similar situations to her, has made me realise that I've been the airy fairy 'I'm your friend,lets have loads of fun' type of trainee teacher for way to long. It really hurt when I realised this. Now however I've come to terms with it and realised I'm a trainee for a reason. I'm still learning.

My new aim is to be a teacher. In that I actually teach. I don't want to help mould another generation of sheep who follow everything they see in the media. I want to teach so that I create inspiration and motivation. Most of all I want to teach so that children become the shepard's rather then the sheep. They can think for themselves and make their own decisions. I want the children that I teach to achieve greatness and help this world out of the sorry state it's in.

Yeah, I know EXTREMELY optimistic aims for a wannabe primary teacher. Think I've been outside a classroom for too long. Hope this next placement doesn't lower my expectations to 'my aim is to get them to sit still for a lesson'

At the moment I feel abit like the cartoon pinky and the brain where every episode is to take over the world. Here it's to help change the world for the better...Insha Allah

Just do it....

I have an assignment due in tomorrow. We have to evaluate our presentation and talk about teamwork listing conflicts, strengths, weaknesses, how to resolve them etc.

I don't mind talking about my own strengths and weaknesses but feel bad writing about the conflicts we had as a group. It's like I'm backbiting yet I don't have any trouble talking about the conflicts with almost anyone who will listen. Just writing about it seems to feel like a sin. Ok maybe not to that extreme but abit like when your in primary school and fear being called a grass by saying so and so did or didn't do this.

I don't want to be a grass but at the same time I don't want to lose out on marks for not evaluating or analysing in enough depth. I'm sure non of the issues we had would ever come up if we were actual teachers rather then student teachers. We as in the whole group would be dedicated more and we wouldn't fall in to some of the pitfalls we did. Or maybe I'm just being too optimistic...so far I've just hedged around the true learning points but it sounds like I'm talking in riddles. Having been on the receiving end of reading riddles I know that can be annoying and it just leaves me wanting to know EXACTLY what happened.

I'll stop now seeing as I'm not making much sense. Think I'll just get on with it. Whatever will will be will be........(que sera sera)

Just in case you haven't noticed that's TWO posts within the hour ;-) I'm sticking to my resolution.

Me the great Auntie ;-)

Bounce and twirl it's a baby girl!!!

This actually was the balloon I took in to the hospital. :-)













Was supposed to post that up on the 3rd - the day she was born. I wrote a whole letter type of thing (hence the space) but re-reading it now it sounds waaaaaaay to soppy, so I've printed it and shall stick it in to a memory book I'm keeping for her.

Oh and I intend on blogging more often so watch this space :-)

Hello Blog

I thought I'd start writing again seeing as hema tagged me. Now it won't stop hyperlinking grrrr!!

Anyway here's the top 5 words I use:

1. Silly (I don't like swearing)
   
2. Dammit (When silly won't do e.g. banging my head, when I'm trying to get out from under the table)
   
3. Jeeee (when mum's calling me to come downstairs which seems to be an awful lot these days!)
4. Thank you (That's two words so technically that's 5 words done? :-P )

Might aswell add a brief update:

I'm going to the zoo tomorrow. YAAAAAAY! We're going for a pre-visit to do a risk assessment. We've already cancelled out taking the kids to the bat house. 1 because we're all scared of bats and 2 because we're REALLY scared of what the kids might do. We've been told the year 6 class we're going to be with is lively, unique and interesting. That's politically correct for crazy, weird and random.....I can't wait!!

Our presentation will be on the 8th. We're all dressing up as animals for it. I would write down what I'm going as but I know some of you are so immature you'll never let it go! The presentation has to be as creative as possible and include a brief introduction on where we're taking the children, what kind of activities we have planned and how they link in with the trip. We have to carry out some of the activities with the audience, so basically they become our mock students. Only they much older, will probably listen and I doubt any of them will pick their nose as we talk :-)

That's pretty much it I think.
Wasalaam, goodbye and staaaaaaaaaaaaaaay SAFE!